psychiatrist appointment

 i confessed. 

i confessed i wasnt eating to my psychiatrist. 

she got real worried once i told her...

how little i was eating..

how dizzy i feel constantly..

how much weight ive lost..

how irritable i am..

she said i can get help 

i dont want it 

i just want to be seen

finally seen 

i feel better 

as long as no one

 forces me to do anything 

then i be chill cause 

now someone sees me 

--

am i sick enough for hospital?

a new diagnosis?

treatment?

we'll see 

in the weeks to come