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 here are some monthly goals for.... ↑

1. lose at least 12lbs / 5.4kg
2. eat more protein 
3. eat during the day instead of fasting to reduce risk of binging 
4. spend less $ and instead start saving 

trying to not give myself too many goals cause then i won't achieve any of them lol.

any other suggestions to goals? what are y'alls goals for the month? comment below!

𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓸 𝓵𝓲𝓼𝓽

 monday sept 29th, TO DO:

• 𝔽𝕀ℕ𝕀𝕊ℍ ℂℙℝ 𝕥𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕟𝕚𝕟𝕘 
• 𝕘𝕠 𝕥𝕠 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕜 @ 𝟙𝟙 𝕥𝕠 𝕘𝕖𝕥 𝕓𝕖𝕒𝕕 𝕡𝕦𝕥 𝕓𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕟 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝕘𝕣𝕒𝕓 𝕤𝕥𝕦𝕗𝕗 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕡𝕒𝕣𝕥𝕟𝕖𝕣
• 𝕒𝕤𝕜 𝕓𝕠𝕤𝕤 𝕒𝕓𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕖𝕩𝕔𝕙𝕒𝕟𝕘𝕖 
• 𝕕𝕚𝕤𝕙𝕖𝕤 
• 𝕔𝕝𝕖𝕒𝕟 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕕𝕘𝕖 
• 𝕃𝔸𝕌𝔻ℕℝ𝕐
• 𝕠𝕠𝕠𝕠 𝕔𝕙𝕖𝕔𝕜 𝕠𝕦𝕥 𝕙𝕠𝕥 𝕥𝕠𝕡𝕚𝕔/𝕤𝕡𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖𝕣𝕤 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕙𝕒𝕝𝕝𝕠𝕨𝕖𝕖𝕟 𝕠𝕦𝕥𝕗𝕚𝕥

if i get these things done, i can give myself a lil reward<3 (NOT food)

what should it be??

ideas: 

1. get one extra coffee this week 
2. one new accessory 
3. AHHHH i can buy the LoseIt subscription for $20

comment below ideas/suggestions! 

xx rain 

psychiatrist appointment

 i confessed. 

i confessed i wasnt eating to my psychiatrist. 

she got real worried once i told her...

how little i was eating..

how dizzy i feel constantly..

how much weight ive lost..

how irritable i am..

she said i can get help 

i dont want it 

i just want to be seen

finally seen 

i feel better 

as long as no one

 forces me to do anything 

then i be chill cause 

now someone sees me 

--

am i sick enough for hospital?

a new diagnosis?

treatment?

we'll see 

in the weeks to come 

september 26

09.26.25

good morning lovelies! today i weighed in at 71.8kg. still the same as the other day but oh well. i had coffee and no bm yet so thats probably why. 

Today i work 11-8. I really love my job and im excited to go in. I just have a lot of chores to do at home that i just really have no motivation for. 

im hoping for a busy day at work and then an easy night. I will be taking my leftover for lunch to give me some energy. some context: i normally only eat a small fry and drink lots of diet coke at work. but i need to start increasing my intake due to my job. My job involves needles and i cannot be dizzy or be passing out while i have a needle in my hand. can you imagine? so anyways today im taking some leftovers of the dinner me and my partner made the other night. its really high in calories so i can only eat a bit but thats okay. my partner really wants me to eat it so they'll be happy yay. 

okay anyways ill stop yapping. i hope everyone has a good day:)

 

welcome to.. 𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖆𝖗𝖙 𝖔𝖋 𝖓𝖔𝖙 𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌

 hello & welcome!

my name is rain and im so glad you are here. this blog is a documentation of my life with an ed and bpd. I will be sharing all different kinds of things like rants, pictures of my cats & meals, weight updates, and  maybe videos and audio if i can figure that out lol. IMPORTANT: NO PICS ON THIS BLOG ARE OF ME UNLESS STATED! okay? okay. 

I will NOT be posting tips or anything of that sort. this is just my life story through a blog. 

I have always been interested in blogs. Ever since i was in my high schools newspaper class (where i learned about blogging) i have always been interested in making blogs. i have created soo many blogs but have not published a single one. they are all hidden with not even the layout finished. I love blogger and how easy it is to use. 

I do have another blog called "Sincerely, Rain" that you may have seen me from. That blog is now my personal blog that i had made private. that is my diary and will not be shared so that is why it may have looked like i disappeared. nope! i am still here almost everyday. i decided ill make a blog so that i can publicly share because i miss comments and updating everyone. 

anyways heres a bit about me.

✮ 23     ✮ piercer in training

✮ stoner     ✮ 4 cats 

i hope y'all enjoy and i'll talk to ya soon! :)